This all started out looking at the shadow on the wall of myself. It started out like a normal prayer. Well at least up until this moment, this moment has been stuck in my mind for a while I felt I should share.

I remember the lights, the song, the place I was sitting, the wall I was looking upon. This was not just something normal, that has happened, but it has been burned into my spirit man as a one of many true encounters with My Daddy. These words to my remembrance have never been uttered out of my lips before this moment.

The song was ” Abba by Jonathan David Helser “ , The words of this song hit home to me, The belonging to my heavenly father, my true belonging not being on this earth. That someone cared for me through my struggles, That my Father is closer then the breath in my lungs. That He is closer to me then the skin on bones. I truly do belong to Him, I’m not some item bought by a small price, No, I have been purchased by His first Son. His perfect Son. His Beloved Son. His spotless powerful, beautiful son.

To this day yet still, I do not understand how a battered, bruised, used, failure, broken, wasted, man that I once was and still em, was counted Worthy. Was counted as something worthy of dying for, and at that not just by some small sacrifice not something battered and used like I was, but the best sacrifice, the greatest sacrifice God could send for me. To not just purchase me, but to make me His own. At this moment I was staring at my shadow, and it came out, “Do I really look like you? Do I truly sound like you? Do I move like you? Do I speak like you do? What am I to you? What will I become?”

This reflection of mine did not move as I spoke. I closed my eyes and like normal it became dark but something different happened, every noise started to fade away from my ears. It was like a gentle whisper throughout all the noise was honed into, it seemed to be so loudly spoken,

“This is it, you look upon your life, you see the outline, you think you know what you see, yet anything truly is possible, you think you know what lies behind the darkness, behind the things you cannot see. You only see the outline. You think you can find out, that you can change it, alter it, but you can’t. I am the only one that knows what that shadow will become, I am the only one that can transform that shadow into anything.

You can work, you can speak, you can study, you can do everything in your power, but you will fail. Every time you look upon this shadow it will seem to never change for you. It will never become what you desire for. You want to know why it will never become what you want it to be? Because you will always be thirsting for more. You will always be wanting more. You will always be desiring more to change and become different.

You will always try, but will you realize now, you look like me, you sound like me, you are mine, you are My desire, you are what I want, you are what I payed such a price for, you are what I cried for, you are what I sang for, you are what I danced for, what my heart broke for, what I sent my only son for.”

As I listen the noises start to fade back in. I open my eyes, with tears running down my face I wonder why I do not listen more, I asked my self, I wonder why it takes so long for me to hear Him sometimes. Maybe just maybe its because I get so wrapped up in my own prayers my wishlist and my heart and my plans. That I forget He has His own heart, and His own plans for my life.

I always try to get my word in first to Him, when in reality He just wants me to sit and cuddle up next to His feet, He wants intimacy, not some man or woman that is running around crazy trying to make themselves perfect or make everything perfect for everyone else to see. But all He wants is Intimacy! He wants our hearts. That is all His desire, He wants our love. He poured out His love for us, the least we can do is pour our life’s as a offering back unto Him. He calls us His beloved. He calls me His son, not just another person He saved, but His very own son. He calls me His own.

He calls you His son, His daughter. The life you live now is not by the power or the things you have pushed forward to become, or studied. But it from Him molding and shaping you for a moment in time in the future for you to speak into someones life to change their eternity for ever. For you to let your testimony flow from your lips that will be used to set freedom to people that have been in bondages of years. To tear down walls that have been built for years that they never thought they would look over again.

Oh He has great plans. He has always did. The times of looking upon the mirror or looking upon my shadow, I remember now the Likeness, the resemblance of me and Him. When I do not feel like it is going according to plan, or I do not feel like a son because of something I did from my past to the very present, I look upon the shadow and remember I am a Look Alike of the Great I Am, Of the Creator.

And so are You. You are a Look-alike.

I pray that through this you see that you are All He says you are, that He has many promises for you, and He will never break them. He is Faithful. He is Loving.

He is your father so I challenge you to ask Him what He truly thinks of you. To ask your heavenly father what He loves about you. You will be blown away by His response.

The Peace that will surpass all understanding I pray falls on you.

Joseph III